Why this was created...

The other night I was laying in bed and couldn't sleep because I had already been woken up by my son once and my dog twice... I was already mad, and thought about how cranky I was going to be the following day. I sat there thinking "well I hope the morning goes smoothly so I don't yell or get frustrated. I hope Charlie takes a good nap so I can get the house clean." The list of my thoughts goes on, and then I realized what I was thinking and how negative I was being. What was wrong with me? My son woke me up because he heard a noise and was scared. He needed me to comfort him. He needed me. My dog woke me up because she hasn't been feeling well and was whining by the back door. This is not something she normally does, so clearly something was wrong with her, so what the heck was wrong with me? I have two beautiful children, a wonderful, hard working husband, a roof over my head, food on my table, and I am over here thinking about reasons to get mad before they even happen. I must be a crazy person? Or a normal mom? Who knows. Either way, I made the decision to look for the joy in every day, of every year, for the rest of my life. Joy is not hard to find, especially when you have two little babes who remind me of joy looks like everything. My children sit in the back seat and laugh at each other for no reason. They squeal and giggle when I push them in swings or chase them around the house. They find the joy in all things, and I do not want to kill that by being upset or cranky over things that do not matter. My four year old is already so serious, I think I made him that way but telling him to be a big boy, or to focus. He needs to be little, and run, and play, and do silly things because he is a silly boy. I need to relax. This is my reminder to find the joy and be goofy, and have fun with my children because they will grow up before my eyes in no time. I don't want to miss a second of it, and more importantly, I want to enjoy it.

Playing with daddy! Wheres your nose??

Playing on the swings.

Going down the slide with big brother. He loves taking her down the slide and pushing her on the swings.